So i am really mad at myself
because i am having this split personality thing
almost like there are two totally different people arguing in my head
and no, i'm not one of those people...thanks for your concern :/

You see, there is this person
and i think i give them more credit than i should
because i love hanging out with them
and they make me laugh
it's always lots of fun
and i care a lot about what they think
maybe too much...
because it seems like they rarely have anything good to say
and when they make offhand comments or insults it hurts
probably more than it should
and definitely more than it would if anyone else had said it
because i put way to much stock in what they think
Obviously

So part of me wants to forget it
and do what Hope told me to do
and say suck it up, get over it
because really i shouldn't care that much
and if they wanted to be good friends
or something more
than they would put some effort in
right??
then another part of me thinks that if i could just improve
or do better than maybe i could gain approval
and that's why i get mad at myself
I shouldnt let myself get so insecure
People that make you feel bad about yourself
are not worth your time

So easy to say
so hard to practice