i hate money....i hate it more when i dont have any

i did not realize that
my book voucher money came from scholarship money
that i would have otherwise gotten as a refund check
and now that i am not getting a refund check
i am also NOT getting book money
and i have to purchase 900 dollars worth of books
(that of course would be by bookstore standards. I, myself, am trying to get a little creative)
And have to pay for VA too
I am BROKE
yep, in all caps
:) but for the most part i dont mind
learning to spend money wisely is a good trait

However, i do have a fifty dollar gift card
that my mom made me promise i would spend on something fun for myself
since that rarely happens anymore
AAAANNNNDDD I want to spend it on season four of NCIS
:/
should i spend it on something else?
i mean i havent seen much of that season
and it's not like fifty dollars would buy much clothes, or that i need them
I guess i could buy books,
but i would never have time to read them
and i could get them free at the library...

rawr
i want to spend it
but i cant help from thinking that it would be a waste
but then...i did promise my mom