i need to get away
i need to run from here
i need bigger buildings
more sidewalks
more people
i want to disappear

* * * *

everything here is so stagnate
they all seem content
The same old circles everyday
it's making me insane
I dont understand people
who can stay in the same place for their entire lives
sometimes i get the overwhelming urge to move
and i cant
so i escape for the day
until the urge passes and i return
to the life i am stuck with
for the time being
one day,
maybe
one day

At sixteen

Infatuation, maybe
That's what you feel
Love at sixteen can't be real
You'll fall together
Fall apart
He'll leave you with
A broken heart
They preached it often
Preached it loud
A love like ours was not
Allowed
But the harder they fought
The more we shoved
Secrets fueling
Our desire for love
The stars gave their blessing
Our actions unseen
We had all we needed
In love at sixteen
Unbreakable we thought
One wrong move and it cracked
Tried to hold it together
But couldnt go back
Appologies spoken
The tears, they were shed
Unsure how to handle
Uncertainty ahead
Life played itself out
Your future and mine
To hold to the past
Would have wasted our time
So my only thought now
When you walk down the aisle
Is I had you first (love at sixteen)
And I smile

~JLynn

I'm going back!

My deposit is being paid Monday! You have no idea how excited i am to go back. Even with the fact that my hopes of becoming a spanish minor are diminishing, the thrill of traveling back to the place that made the goal a reality for me...it's intense. I didnt think i would be this excited.

Sometimes it's good for the hot water to go out
It's good to take a shower that shocks me
that makes me shiver a little
it's good
because it reminds me that
99.9% of the time i have hot, running water
and that is something i take for granted
99.9% of the time

My review of Valentine's Day (movie)

*Contains Spoilers*

so first of all, i thought this movie would be isanely cheesy. It wasnt too bad. The first fifteen minutes were incredibly sugar coated, but after that everyone's world started falling apart. It got a little more realistic. The main problem i had (only at the beginning) was keeping everyones storyline seperated. It is one where they are all intertwined..but so many people to keep straight!

* Taylor Swift and Taylor Lautner did not need to be in this movie. Their part was a ridiculous attempt to add humor and bring in a younger crowd. I realize that their parts were written to make them sound like idiots, but it still doesnt improve my opinion of either of them. And for you Lautner lovers, he keeps his shirt on.

*Older couple.... Let's just say made me tear up.

*Didnt even recognize jessica biel for the first half hour. sad right?

*Finally a role in which i didnt fall for Patrick Dempsey! maybe he would do well with jessica alba?

* Bradley Cooper is once again charming and very attractive, which means that lots of women arent going to be to happy with his end scene. I enjoyed it.

*Julia Roberts...i didnt see that one coming, why didnt i see it. Perfect! perfect....
she plays her role well, which i think would be hard to do considering she and bradley cooper spend almost the entire movie aboard on airplane

*There was a lot of "aww-ing" and gasping in the audience. Who would have thought it would have been so dramatic?

I laughed more than i rolled my eyes, and i didnt feel the need to leave the theater, so...

Overall....3.5 out of 5 i suppose

One of my favorite parts...at the end during the credits Julia Roberts is riding in the back of a car. The driver says "This is rodeo drive...ever been here" She replies, "I tried to shop here once...big mistake, big, huge!"

made me laugh. no one else seemed to get it :(

i hate money....i hate it more when i dont have any

i did not realize that
my book voucher money came from scholarship money
that i would have otherwise gotten as a refund check
and now that i am not getting a refund check
i am also NOT getting book money
and i have to purchase 900 dollars worth of books
(that of course would be by bookstore standards. I, myself, am trying to get a little creative)
And have to pay for VA too
I am BROKE
yep, in all caps
:) but for the most part i dont mind
learning to spend money wisely is a good trait

However, i do have a fifty dollar gift card
that my mom made me promise i would spend on something fun for myself
since that rarely happens anymore
AAAANNNNDDD I want to spend it on season four of NCIS
:/
should i spend it on something else?
i mean i havent seen much of that season
and it's not like fifty dollars would buy much clothes, or that i need them
I guess i could buy books,
but i would never have time to read them
and i could get them free at the library...

rawr
i want to spend it
but i cant help from thinking that it would be a waste
but then...i did promise my mom

Jesus Wasnt a Politician

i am so sick and tired of people trying to tell me how jesus would vote and what jesus would vote for. I can't believe that people actually think that if he were alive today he would be a republican...OR a democrat. seriously? The man spent his life speaking out against liars and thieves, and there are plenty of liars and theives on both sides. The only thing i clearly recall him mentioning specifically about politics is that we should give to Caesar what is caesars and to God what is God's. In other words, pay your taxes, and pay your tithes. And dont worry about money problems because that's not what this world is about. God will provide. It's in the book that you claim to trust in so much.

What did jesus say about being a good citizen...hmmm...care of your elderly, provide for the poor, love your neighbors, heal the sick, and protect and love your children.
I'm all up for doing that without getting politicians involved.

So please, don't tell me what policies jesus would vote for, and who he would put in office, because you know in your heart when it comes down to it, you arent really voting for who would do the most good, but rather, but who (you personally believe) will cause the least damage. And i can't see jesus getting behind any of that at all.

He wasnt a politician. He just...did good.