so good news is..i'm not paranoid like i have been fighting with myself about over the past 3 weeks or so...

the bad news is that, since I am not paranoid, the thing that i was worried about did actually happen.

I'm not sure whether i am happy that i am not thinking irrationally
or upset because i kind of feel like i've been hit in the stomach, and it's sometimes hard to breathe...

:/
maybe that's a little dramatic
i mean, i could say it's whatever
because really....it is

but it does hurt

ce la vie?

<3