So i didnt get the thanksgiving miracle i was asking for. My dog died Thursday night. Well technically my brothers dog, but she was his in name only seeing as i am sure we care for both equally. I didnt think it would hit me hard seeing as i have been away from home for almost three years now and only get to spend a few months total with the dogs over a course of the year...but it did.
My dad was optimistic when he told me about her accident a little over a week ago. She had been hit by a car and taken to the vet, but the vet seemed pretty sure she would recover. She looked like she was doing well but Thursday night she had some difficulties breathing. turned out there was some internal damage that was overlooked. She didnt make it through the night.
My dad has always claimed that the dogs belonged to me and my brother and that he would never get attached to them. But it wasn't true. Thursday night was the first time i remember seeing him cry openly. And you might think she was just a dog, and yeah...she was. But we miss her. I miss her.
My other dog seems at a complete loss. They were sisters, and havent spent a day apart in the last 4 years. I hope she makes it out okay. Two more weeks and i will be home to look over her.
Not the best thanksgiving...hopefully christmas will be an improvement.
Sunday, November 29, 2009
Thursday, November 19, 2009
just thinking....
-Watching movies with friends is always a great end to a day
-It's really hard to be sad when you are concentrating hard on something else
-It's hard to be sad when you are helping someone else
-most drinking songs where obviously written while completely intoxicated
- How much a simple act of kindness can change someone's life.
- It is impossible to keep up with texts, messages, emails etc. sometimes wonder if it's worth trying
- all public places should have more trash and recycle bins.
-How bad it must hurt to be alone, especially on holidays
- how much i love shopping at thrift stores and yard sales
- Jodi Picault books make plane rides go much faster
- How much an old, cheesy song from middle school can make you smile.
- How much negative energy effects you.
- I am really excited to go back to my parents house and eat some real food, but soon after i get there i will revert back to my old ways of cereal and micro waved burritoes...yumm
- I wish i had to willpower to turn down chocolateor any dessert for that matter...
-how absolutely amazing fresh pineapple isor any fruit. so much better when it is right off the tree/bush fresh
-how good i have gotten at procrastinating when the actual task would take hardly any time at all
-how useless and wasteful procrastinating is..
.-how stupid name brands are
- How stupid racism and homophobia is.
- How simple and worthwhile it is to make someone smile.
- How awesome it is to laugh until you cry.
- How much I love my job
-how lucky i am to have not one, but two jobs, in this economy
-how i am going to keep working even through the bad days because you cant take things for granted
- How no past thing should poison future happiness.
- How wonderful it is to be loved, all flaws included.
- How much I love movies.- How much I love books.
- How frustrated I get with stupid, commercialmovies and books
- How nice it is when a girl is beautiful and she is genuinely nice
- How hurtful it is to be wrong, when relying on trust and faith.
- How much women are raised to hate themselves and the horrible consequences.
- How absolutely wonderful it is when women are loving and supportive of other women.
- how much i suck at keeping in contact with people
- How friends can sustain you and love you anyways, even when you are tired and grumpy to them.
- How much I despise criminals, even petty shoplifters
- I love black and white photographs
-i hate the concept of dog breeding and dog shows
- How much and how often, i really want to run away and hide somewhere
-i am so glad my roommate is such an easy going person, and way more organized than i will ever be
-how a simple smell or taste can take you all the way back to childhood
-how easily addicted i can become to certain books, television shows, exercise, and songs..
-how much i love NCIS and how much i hate that ZIva is changing from an awesome ninja chick who didnt care what others thought to a total westernized make-up plastered, hair straightened, no accented version of her former self. i miss Ziva
-how i would love to hang out with Pauley Perrette for a day. and not creeper-ish. more like hey let's drink beer and talk about books while we laugh at the dogs running around the house...because she seems like the kind of person that would like that. Except i dont like beer...if she had wine we would be good to go...
-except that i might be a nervous wreck if i ever got to talk to her, which is silly. the whole concept of celebrities is silly
-how much people would benefit if they stopped being compulsive shoppers, how much money they would save and how much good they could do with that money
-how much i adore christmas
-aaand i need to write my art papergood night random thoughtsi will pick you back up again at another time
-It's really hard to be sad when you are concentrating hard on something else
-It's hard to be sad when you are helping someone else
-most drinking songs where obviously written while completely intoxicated
- How much a simple act of kindness can change someone's life.
- It is impossible to keep up with texts, messages, emails etc. sometimes wonder if it's worth trying
- all public places should have more trash and recycle bins.
-How bad it must hurt to be alone, especially on holidays
- how much i love shopping at thrift stores and yard sales
- Jodi Picault books make plane rides go much faster
- How much an old, cheesy song from middle school can make you smile.
- How much negative energy effects you.
- I am really excited to go back to my parents house and eat some real food, but soon after i get there i will revert back to my old ways of cereal and micro waved burritoes...yumm
- I wish i had to willpower to turn down chocolateor any dessert for that matter...
-how absolutely amazing fresh pineapple isor any fruit. so much better when it is right off the tree/bush fresh
-how good i have gotten at procrastinating when the actual task would take hardly any time at all
-how useless and wasteful procrastinating is..
.-how stupid name brands are
- How stupid racism and homophobia is.
- How simple and worthwhile it is to make someone smile.
- How awesome it is to laugh until you cry.
- How much I love my job
-how lucky i am to have not one, but two jobs, in this economy
-how i am going to keep working even through the bad days because you cant take things for granted
- How no past thing should poison future happiness.
- How wonderful it is to be loved, all flaws included.
- How much I love movies.- How much I love books.
- How frustrated I get with stupid, commercialmovies and books
- How nice it is when a girl is beautiful and she is genuinely nice
- How hurtful it is to be wrong, when relying on trust and faith.
- How much women are raised to hate themselves and the horrible consequences.
- How absolutely wonderful it is when women are loving and supportive of other women.
- how much i suck at keeping in contact with people
- How friends can sustain you and love you anyways, even when you are tired and grumpy to them.
- How much I despise criminals, even petty shoplifters
- I love black and white photographs
-i hate the concept of dog breeding and dog shows
- How much and how often, i really want to run away and hide somewhere
-i am so glad my roommate is such an easy going person, and way more organized than i will ever be
-how a simple smell or taste can take you all the way back to childhood
-how easily addicted i can become to certain books, television shows, exercise, and songs..
-how much i love NCIS and how much i hate that ZIva is changing from an awesome ninja chick who didnt care what others thought to a total westernized make-up plastered, hair straightened, no accented version of her former self. i miss Ziva
-how i would love to hang out with Pauley Perrette for a day. and not creeper-ish. more like hey let's drink beer and talk about books while we laugh at the dogs running around the house...because she seems like the kind of person that would like that. Except i dont like beer...if she had wine we would be good to go...
-except that i might be a nervous wreck if i ever got to talk to her, which is silly. the whole concept of celebrities is silly
-how much people would benefit if they stopped being compulsive shoppers, how much money they would save and how much good they could do with that money
-how much i adore christmas
-aaand i need to write my art papergood night random thoughtsi will pick you back up again at another time
Monday, November 9, 2009
so today i bought a scarf
and it's my new favorite thing
warm and soft and the perfect shade of blue
it was more than i normally spend on a single article of clothing
but for once, i could afford it, so why not?
i immediately felt guilty about it
but then found out it was hand made in ecuador
and the proceeds from the sale
go to help women in other countries start their own bussinesses
so, i have a perfect new scarf
and nothing to feel guilty about
:)
and it's my new favorite thing
warm and soft and the perfect shade of blue
it was more than i normally spend on a single article of clothing
but for once, i could afford it, so why not?
i immediately felt guilty about it
but then found out it was hand made in ecuador
and the proceeds from the sale
go to help women in other countries start their own bussinesses
so, i have a perfect new scarf
and nothing to feel guilty about
:)
oops
so have you ever been so enthralled by a person that they begin to embody more of an idea then an actual person?
Maybe that's just me...but it happens
Like when I really look up to a certain person and i talk about how amazing they are, and blog about something they said and make comments to the effect that i read/watch everything they produce...
yeah i sometimes forget that they are an actual person and if they ever come across such information it could make me seem like a giant creeper
oh well
:)
what are the odds?
and life goes on....
Maybe that's just me...but it happens
Like when I really look up to a certain person and i talk about how amazing they are, and blog about something they said and make comments to the effect that i read/watch everything they produce...
yeah i sometimes forget that they are an actual person and if they ever come across such information it could make me seem like a giant creeper
oh well
:)
what are the odds?
and life goes on....
Sunday, November 1, 2009
think i am allergic to SC
or maybe just Columbia
I felt fantastic all week
(Had an absolute blast inn DC)
But as the plane started to descend into Cola
My heard started hurting
And the shoulders and back tensed up again
Fail
How many weeks until Christmas?
Oh, Oh! This was the first year i have EVER dressed up for halloween. I know, a little slow on the uptake there, but it was a lot of fun. And we saw some very interesting characters on the metro.
good times
good times
I felt fantastic all week
(Had an absolute blast inn DC)
But as the plane started to descend into Cola
My heard started hurting
And the shoulders and back tensed up again
Fail
How many weeks until Christmas?
Oh, Oh! This was the first year i have EVER dressed up for halloween. I know, a little slow on the uptake there, but it was a lot of fun. And we saw some very interesting characters on the metro.
good times
good times
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