not a slacker!

i mean...i am...kinda...but the serious lack of updates isnt my fault
My parents got rid of the internet! (and heat...but that one isnt really their fault)
So when I am at my parents house i can only get internet if i sit ridiculously close to the back door. (which i happen to be doing now) so i can borrow it from the neighbors. any kind of movement will cause the internet to poof out. Which is why it has taken about three hours to write two blog updates. Sorry guys.

I love you.
I miss you
rinse...repeat for all
Happy New Year.
dude just hearing "2011" whigs me out

~later days~

nerf wars!

I got Christina a nerf gun because she said she coudnt remember the last time she had a nerf fight and i thought that was sad. Soooo....i fixed the problem and she spent the night attacking employess...and megan...and me... :)

Got nathan one too. just to make it fair. His is tiny for three year old hands. And he still has a hard time pulling the trigger. Such a cool kid.

We had a nerf fight today. He shoots himself with the gun because he can only pull the trigger with his thumb so he holds it backwards. He kept whispering to Christina to attack me. but the highlight was when he gave me his gun and said "attack sissy!"

really like this kid. anyway, it was a fun morning. Happy New Years Eve!

year in ups and downs

January:
*I’m sure there was a New Years party of some kind…but I don’t remember it

February:
*It snowed. A Lot! And Miranda played in it with me even though she was sick 

March:
*up-Spring Break was amazing. Spent the week rebuilding a house with an incredible team.
*down-Sam’s mom got really, really sick 
*up-did some pretty intense praying which is something I hadn’t done in a while
*up-Sam’s mom got better
*up-my 21st birthday party was so much fun!

April:
*pretty much all of April was really good
*TF Trip to Beufort
*Hope’s 21st birthday
*Jenn officially comes out of the closet (oh snap)
*got into the cottages with my suite! And Sjaan and Sarah! Lots of happy dances

May:
*The beginning was good, the ending was bad. The end

June:
*down-took a chemistry class of doom
*up-passed the class
*down-had my heart fractured slightly (no worries, I’m a quick healer)
*up-solved that by skipping class and going to the beach

July:
*Spent the month in Mexico! It was incredible. My roommate was awesome, my family was super nice, Kristina always kept me laughing

August:
*came back to the states
*met a really cool kid at a bar..whose name I cant remember…don’t judge me. She moved …ok I know I suck.
*anyway, she introduced me to Alex..who introduced me to Lexie. Yay for new friends!
*started school back-got to see my favorite people!
*down-started missing Morgan 

September:
*Pride!
*meeting new people especially Cortney and Dana (once again yay! For new people)
*my kindergarteners!
*Pop-culture conference with Sam and Hope. Good and bad all the way around 

October:
*honors conference. gooooood times =]
*Umm…Halloween?

November:
*down-drama, drama, drama
*up-I have the best suite ever
*up-Christmas lights with Becca!
*up-Black Friday shopping with the cousins!

December:
*Christmas tree lighting
*fun times with the suite
*tattoo!
*back to work
*back to hanging out with people I don’t get to see when I am in school
*I couldn’t ask for a better support system than my cousins (the Fourwheeler) the rest of my family thinks we are insane

I can't be what you want

So i decided to be myself
..and I'm so much happier

I'm not a dyke
I will never be one



Yeah...she's pretty attractive. But she isn't me. Sometimes (ok usually) i'm in a jeans and t-shirt mood (don't we all have those?) But sometimes...

I like pretty dresses and nail polish that changes colors in the sun. I like straightening my hair and wearing pretty rings that sparkle when i move my fingers around. I like heels. I like anklets and earrings that jingle. i like smelling like christmas <3 and in the spring i like smelling like flowers.

I'm a low-maintenance kind of girly-girl
and...i like it <3



*disclaimer-yeah I know that dyke has a negative connotation, that's not the way I am using it. I also know that not everyone uses it to mean "butch" and in this context, I'm not really using that way either. It's hard to explain, but if you've been where i am, you probably have a good idea of what I am talking about.

*sigh*

sad that i have to add a disclaimer to my own blog?

here's the deal...

I didnt have internet over Thanksgiving break, and it is, as you all know, Hell Week at school. So...sorry for the SERIOUS lack of updates.

Thanksgiving break was fun. Got to catch up with one of my good friends i havent hung out with in what seems like AGES. Dinner with the family...all 50+ of them showed up :) Black Friday shopping with my favorite cousins...minus a few who were slack and stayed in bed *cough* Lora, Victoria *cough* still love them though.

So...despite it being hell week and all, the week actually hasnt been that bad. I am doing well. Most of my work is done. And my mood is quite a bit better than it has been in a while. I think I am going to chalk it up to seeing family/friends i havent seen in a while. And some lessons learned.

One thing I have discovered, "When you get bit by a snake, you're supposed to suck the poison out. That's what I had to do. Suck all the poison out of my life." Yes, i did just quote mean girls. And i apologize. But it holds true. Sometimes you're the poison, some times other people are poison. You can't make everyone like you. Some people just won't. It is not worth it to harm yourself in your efforts to win approval. Forget that. If they don't know how awesome you are, then it's their loss.

Enjoy the friends you have. Love the life you live <3

Sometimes you need to roll down the windows and scream out the lyrics to your favorite song. Sometimes you need to dance around your room with your suite mate. Sometimes you need to blow up a friends phone with text messages, forget the paper and go get ice cream, or curl up in a ball and watch a Weeds marathon while trying to force yourself to do homework

Sometimes...it's the little things that make it better.
<3